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The_new_Papillon
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Birthday: 7/9/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: God, becoming the best procurement professional out there, Learning, how to better the world.
Expertise: Succeeding in most tasks that I'm introduced to, Liberal Arts as a whole, nothing mathematical please. Keeping my sanity is the REAL talent...
Occupation: Government
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AIM:  Euroclydon00
Member Since:
11/22/2005
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I'm still working on getting Floyd to understand what kind of person I am. I am working with him because he's working with me. He's not like many people who will ask me a question in passing and not care about the answer. He understands that getting to know his workers takes time and patience and he is willing to put in the effort despite any confusion or misunderstandings that occur.
We went on our morning walk this morning and I got a chance to share a little more.
**elapsed time**
Aight, I got bored with that topic. I've filtered that through my "Is this worth documenting" filter.
I just bought a Dooney and Bourke purse for Breyhanna off of craigslist for 25 bucks. Yes. 25 bucks. I'll have to see what kind of condition "Slightly Used" is. That will determine whether it is gift material or not. She said there are a few scratches on the bottom. She lives right around the corner from me actually so this is so convenient. No driving out to West End and junk.
Laura sent me a very awesome article today talking about how not all CEOs are extroverts and it helped to clear up the myth that all introverted people are crazy and just... bad. I mean, dude, everyone can't be an extrovert.
Wow, Sarah Palin hardcore memorized some answers. You can tell that she practiced hard core. She looks super nervous like she's going to freaking pass out but she's doing a good job.
I've been thinking hard about going back on medication again. Just so I can focus on things. I'm thinking I might go back on it when I start working on my masters or next July. I have a few pills left but obviously I'm afraid to touch them because it will mean instant addiction and I have no way of getting more right now. At least not until I work out my insurance stuff.
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| Sarah Palin is crashing and burning yo. I feel her pain. I don't think she's going to make it through that debate. I really like her but I just don't feel she is Vice President material.
Today was a nice chill day at work. The system is being upgraded so...we couldn't really do anything today. Went for our regular morning walk with the boss. Then Calundra and I talked to Pam for a bit. Went to a procurement seminar for 2 hours. Went to lunch. We also checked out a hispanic thrift store then it was time to go home.
I see they're trying to pass a 3.9% raise for government employees for 2009. That's freaking awesome. I believe we also get a cost of living raise. hip hip hooray.
It's already almost the end of my work week. Yep, Wednesday is the new Thursday.
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| That training was boring as hell. As soon as that instructor started talking I e-mailed Calundra (who was sitting right next to me) and said "what have we gotten ourselves into?" It was cool though. Thank God that it didn't really last 4 hours. We were out of there in 3 and it was a quick 3 hours.
Oh, I am so thankful for my job! Thank you Jesus!
We were talking about today how 40% of the workforce will be retiring in the next 5 years and how the government is really focusing on keeping new recruits because we have to carry the torch. Supervisors got training on how to mentor and teach interns how to do their jobs for REAL and not just graze over it.
I forgot to drink my water today so I was totally dehydrated. gah!
Today we had a going away party for Brenda. It was also really nice. I think I'm going to appoint myself "office photographer" haha. I got some really good pictures.
Okay okay. SLEEP!
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| Aww, it's not cold enough for my Matrix coat yet. Weather, hurry up and change.
I've decided to take a combination of Laura and Calundra's advice in dealing with my father. I definitely need to tell him that I'm not ready for a meeting in a way that isn't insulting or disrespectful. Obviously I know I have to tell him something because he is more than an ex-boyfriend who won't stop calling. haha. This is still totally what this situation feels like. This whole thing was just to sudden for me to digest especially at a time when I was just sorting out some of my other personal issues. The e-mail that I sent to Laura sums up how I feel about the situation.
(I was already writing an additional rant before you responded. I think this is the last one for the day. Lol)
I will probably steal one of your suggested phrases and make it my
own. Yeah, I don't want to hurt him. I really don't hate him (um
I don't even know him enough to hate him) I'm frustrated with the
situation. I was definitely just getting comfortable with my peaceful,
drama free life. I'm really happy with my job and happy to be (slowly)
meeting new people. I was free from dramatic, meaningless
relationships, annoying ex-boyfriends and free from "frenemies" like
Dotty subconsciously telling me that I'm worthless. I've even managed
to let Jennifer down gently without totally telling her off.
I am seriously tired of people accusing me of
trying to coast through life being some emotionless, independent,
impenetrable fortress. This whole "father
coming out of nowhere" thing is a huge fucking deal and I'm pissed off
that people act like it's something I should just be able to easily absorb.
I'm admitting that I am afraid, angry, confused and indecisive. I'm
reaching out for help and people either say "Oh you're trying to hide
your emotions about the situation" OR "oh, whatever, it's just your
father and a huge family that you know nothing about. Deal with it!
YEAH!" I'm just not ready for all of this. I definitely need to try to
talk to him some more before arranging any kind of visit.
I need time to try to forge SOME kind of relationship with him over the phone before I meet him in person. That's something that must happen before I feel comfortable meeting him. I think I need to make it clear that I'm upset with the situation. I'm not upset with my actual father because um... I thought I made it clear that I wasn't abandoned. My mom divorced HIM and made sure he wasn't active in my life. I'm not angry because he didn't pay child support because my mom told him NOT to. I also know that he tried to contact me when I was 16 and my mom wouldn't let him speak to me. So the only emotion I'm really dealing with is the daunting task of trying to get to know a stranger. I'm not even good at doing that with people who are NOT my father. That's why my friend growth is pretty much one friend per year. I think I only know how to talk to one person at a time. haha.
I also hate talking on the phone. I wish he had a damn computer so I could e-mail his ass. I still haven't gotten a picture yet. I can't even imagine who I'm talking to!
Alright, I'll finish this later...or not. Time to go to work. I hope this training is interesting.
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| Oh wiow, so the House didn't pass the bailout plan. That's hardcore. I'm officially freaked out about the future of our economy. I told Calundra what I said about one day we'll probably be selling our Coach bags for 12 dozen eggs. Scary. Ouch, my brain hurts. I know it's a hunger headache though. I didn't eat when I came in.
Today we celebrated Juanita's birthday at work and it was really sweet and fun. We did it good ol' fashion surprise party style by turning out the lights and shouting "surprise" when she came into the room. [sigh] I love DSCR. I'm feeling myself getting attached already but a mobility agreement is a mobility agreement. I will go wherever the DLA mission takes me.
I look forward to tomorrow because Calundra and I are going to come in at 9:00 and go to training from 1:00-5:00. I am totally in love with craigslist. I don't buy really but I just enjoy looking and thinking about all of the good deals up there.
I'm trying hard to leave my neck alone since the chiropractor just gave me a good adjustment. I don't want to mess it up again.
mmm chocolate covered donuts [insert eyes rolling back into head] These are better than I thought they would be. Wow. tasty.
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